How to Be Free From Sin: I Finally Find the Way (Part 1)
By Maru, Philippines
My name is Maru and I come from the Philippines, and my whole family is Christian. I began to believe in the Lord when I was little, and every week I would go to church to hear sermons and attend worship. I remember at church gatherings the pastor often expounding to us the Book of James, chapter 4 verse 4: “You adulterers and adulteresses, know you not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God.” Although I knew this verse well, and I knew that the Lord hated it when we pursued worldly trends, I still lived just like an unbeliever. All I ever thought about every day was my schoolwork and various other activities at school, and when I was with my classmates, I would skip class and go to the shopping mall with them, pursuing fads and following trends. I never had enough time to read the Bible or pray to God, and I simply had no place for God in my heart. Every time I went to church to listen to the pastor give a sermon, I always felt like I wanted to change myself. Afterward, however, I would just carry on living as I had before. Because I was often incapable of putting the Lord’s teachings into practice and I couldn’t help but sin whenever anything happened, I felt pained.
I was a very self-righteous person, and most of the time I simply looked down on my parents and the other elders in my family. I had no respect for them, much less did I do what they said, but instead would often point out their faults and shortcomings, and I disliked being around them. Sometimes, I would think of the Lord Jesus’ words: “And why behold you the mote that is in your brother’s eye, but consider not the beam that is in your own eye? Or how will you say to your brother, Let me pull out the mote out of your eye; and, behold, a beam is in your own eye?” (Matthew 7:3–4). The Lord warned us not to always be looking at the shortcomings and deficiencies of others, but to examine our own problems first, and yet I always fixated on the faults of others, I could show them no tolerance or patience, and nothing I did or said ever accorded with the Lord’s teachings. Whenever I thought of this, I would feel remorse, and I confessed and repented to the Lord many times, asking Him to forgive me. But when anything happened again, I would still be unable to practice tolerance or patience, and would always fixate on other people’s faults and shortcomings. This distressed me a great deal, and I just didn’t know what to do to be able to put the Lord’s teachings into practice.
Moreover, each time I went to church to help with the cleaning or prepare materials for Sunday school, I always wished that my brothers and sisters would take notice of me and praise me. The Lord Jesus’ words came to mind: “Take heed that you do not your alms before men, to be seen of them: otherwise you have no reward of your Father which is in heaven. Therefore when you do your alms, do not sound a trumpet before you, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, that they may have glory of men. Truly I say to you, They have their reward. But when you do alms, let not your left hand know what your right hand does: That your alms may be in secret: and your Father which sees in secret himself shall reward you openly” (Matthew 6:1–4). The Lord delights in those who work in silence and obscurity, and He takes no delight in people who show themselves off to others or who do a little bit of work and then want to take all the credit. And yet everything I did was just to win the praise and high regard of others — I was not doing it to satisfy the Lord. At that time, I often thought of chapter 11 verse 9 in the Book of Ecclesiastes: “Rejoice, O young man, in your youth; and let your heart cheer you in the days of your youth, and walk in the ways of your heart, and in the sight of your eyes: but know you, that for all these things God will bring you into judgment.” Whenever this teaching came to mind, I would always feel a sense of guilt, and I would feel upset that I was never able to free myself from the bonds of sin.
Later, I often prayed to the Lord, saying: “O Lord! I’m so sorry. I know Your words are powerful and that they can change me, but I’m always satisfying my own flesh, I live in sin and am unable to put Your teachings into practice. O Lord! Please save me.” At the same time, I also felt a little anxious and was afraid that, when the Lord Jesus returned, He would abandon me, for God has said: “You shall be holy; for I am holy” (Leviticus 11:44). Although the Lord Jesus was crucified upon the cross and thereby absolved us of our sins, I was still unable to put His teachings into practice and I lived in a state of sin from which I could not escape. “God is holy,” I thought. “If I live in sin, will the Lord abandon me?” I was often disturbed by this thought and I didn’t understand why I always lived in sin. More than this, I couldn’t find the path to rid myself of corruption and be cleansed. I knew that I couldn’t leave the Lord Jesus, however, so all I could do was follow Him as I was.
Source From: Gospel of The Descent of The Kingdom
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